The Never-Ending Race to Perfection

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Wed, 22 May 2013 17:56:19 +1000

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Wed, 22 May 2013 17:56:11 +1000

freckled:

You’ll gain at least 100
Mbf freckled

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Wed, 22 May 2013 17:55:43 +1000

Late late late. Oops

Wed, 22 May 2013 09:27:05 +1000

How the hell did I gain a kilo overnight-I thought I underate yesterday?!?

Wed, 22 May 2013 08:56:19 +1000

Breakfast

Wed, 22 May 2013 08:55:03 +1000

Breakfast

Bobby at the park

Wed, 22 May 2013 07:50:16 +1000

Bobby at the park

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Wed, 22 May 2013 07:45:36 +1000

Woke up at 6 for a walk this morning with bobby. It was mostly us running from all the dogs he was...

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:44:25 +1000

Woke up at 6 for a walk this morning with bobby. It was mostly us running from all the dogs he was scared of(which was all of them) but it was still rewarding. He was happy so I was too.

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Tue, 21 May 2013 08:20:09 +1000

I almost cried yesterday

Tue, 21 May 2013 08:19:35 +1000

I’ll explain later. I’m still fat today-dammit Julia. On the upside I did my makeup beautifully this morning.

Here's the plan for day 2

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:37:54 +1000

Day two. You have a physics prac today so you have to get up early. You should’ve slept well last night-been asleep by 9:30 I would have thought. If not, thats very bad.
Anyway up at 6am-do your 45 minute powerwalk-get yourself excited for the day. After you come back from the powerwalk have a glass of water and sit down for a minute or two. Then shower. You should be revising words that you posted around your shower, don’t waste this time. Then breakfast should be yoghurt, muesli and fruit (you’ll have to buy this tomorrow if its not there). But you can only have this if you sit at your desk and eat it properly not distracted by your mothers trantrum. Unless she’s not awake you can eat it downstairs, but I doubt it unfortunately.
you leave at 8am-get to uni at 9am. Try to write out the practical on the train/tram if you can.
You will have the practical until 12. You can survive I believe in you. I know today is a better day- you willl feel better about yourself so you can look forward to tuesday! After the practical, I’m tempted to let you go home beacuse you’re feeling better about yourself but I should really give you something to do. Yes, you can go home. When you get home I want you to lie on your bed with all your blinds open and just breathe. You are going to breathe and appreciate how good your life is. It’s hard for you to relax I know. You are going to lie down and just rest. You can spend about 1 hour resting, it would really help you, even put on the ‘spa long time mp3 relaxing’ whatever its called music and just think about things and appreciate yourself. Tell yourself how good a person you are. Afer this it would be nice for you to pamper yourself, have a break. Maybe a bath if you feel you have time for that. In the bath you can study your biology so don’t worry! Print out some of those pages from that book you found on the internet why don’t you? And then you can have a lovely bath! After the bath you’re going to have some lunch. Go down to the shops and buy yourself a nice healthy sandwich. Maybe even eat it there if you’re not too afraid to. After the sandwich go back home, you might have to go back to uni now and do study since you have no internet.

Here you go future Julia. I'm starting over again, the way I started before I got a boyfriend.

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:11:28 +1000

Tonight you don’t have much to do, we know that. Infact don’t worry about your assignment because we can fix that up after the practical. All you need to do is get your fat ass into bed by 10pm-take some melatonin and get up at 6:00am. 6:00-7:00 you’re going for that powerwalk. 7-8 Shower, breakfast: two eggs on one slice of toast and leave for uni. You can review what you’ll need to do in the practical on the train, you need to finish a bottle of water on the train unfortunately even though I know it will make you feel bloated, you really should.
Okay-I know you’ll feel shit about yourself and embarrassed. That’s why you can wear your black coat today, because I know you like it and it will make you feel bettter about yourself. You can hide all the back and face fat you accumulated from this weekend’s absolute mess under your hood and survive through this practical. Try to be nice to everyone even though you don’t feel great-just don’t smile too hard and show that awful double chin.
Okay so pracs done at 12pm-go to the maths department and finish putting together your assignment. Then go off and hide at the biomed library and study. You can study there for the rest of the day I think. You’ll need to do your physics preprac, prepare for the prac.
Then you need to try and finish all those goddam physics assingments you never did. Finish them finish them!
Then you will need to watch the chemistry lecture-its up to you if you want to attend biology but you won’t have your notes remember. You may aswell just wait until you have the notes and watch it online at some other point.
You can go home at 8pm I think, but you should only be going home if you know you’re not going to eat and you’re just going to go to sleep. Today you’re not really going to eat, because I want you to feel good about yourself tomorrow.

I’ll just eat this tub of icecream and that can be future Julia’s problem. Fuck.

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:03:05 +1000

I’ll just eat this tub of icecream and that can be future Julia’s problem. Fuck.

Going to sorrento: worst decision of my life.

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:20:46 +1000

So we start off the trip with my parents fighting, more fighting,more fighting then mum fighting with me because I can’t stand her whining anymore and fighting with me because I won’t stick up for her.
ANd then her ruining my diet by just constantly buying junkfood for us or me having to wait in a restaurant eating way too much because she has to have this or that dessert. I know I should have self control but I don’t need this bullshit..her crap and screaming is just making me emotionally eat and with her supplying all these fatty sugary foods its been way too easy to emotionally eat. I’ve probably gained two kilos of this weekend. Fuck.

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Sun, 19 May 2013 16:14:31 +1000

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Sun, 19 May 2013 15:37:58 +1000

Bee goes to medical school: What to do while waiting for GAMSAT results?

Sun, 19 May 2013 14:16:26 +1000

Bee goes to medical school: What to do while waiting for GAMSAT results?:

beegoestomedicalschool:

There’s about a month left of waiting so time to start thinking about applications. Results will be released late May, but applications close 30 May. This means only a few days to sort yourself out for which programmes to apply to and documentation organised. So here are a few things to do/keep in…

fuck my life

Sat, 18 May 2013 21:34:53 +1000

Why the fuck???WHAT THE FUCK..Fuck you mum, I am not my dad, I will not take this. FUck off. I...

Sat, 18 May 2013 21:28:12 +1000

Why the fuck???
WHAT THE FUCK..
Fuck you mum, I am not my dad, I will not take this. FUck off. I don’t want to be involved in your petty arguments. STop forcing me to be involved. It’s your own fault you forced me to say what I thought. You chased him out like a crazy person.